hopeless?

so am i really hopeless? i met a guy this weekend and he's cute, like really really cute, like hopelessly charming.... what to do? omg i'm not that good at this stuff. meeting people, getting to know them. I guess i know the 'rules' for a ONS, but I do NOT know the rules for a Two NS, or a weekend, or a two days in a row spent together with a person you hardly know. I do however know what kind of emotions that stierrs, not that they are that deep, but there is a curiosity, and a feeling of where you might wanna take it, or where you do NOT want to take it.

I'm hopeless at that whole dating thing, maybe b\c i've never actually dated. I've met a guy hung out (very casually) and then taken it somewhere, but dating..... never actually done it. not really, not by the book.... or maybe i've kinda dated, but like lorelai gilmore told rory... yoiu haven't dated: dean, jess were relationships.... and i guess mine goes by the same things.....

I hate investing myself in stuff emotionally, like the curiosity... its the start of an investment. starting out with something physical, is the start of an investment if you've done it more than once and then i don't have a clue as to where i should take it.... really... i might have had two long relationships, but at the dating thing i'm fucking lost like a tiny kitten with nowhere to go.

and now it's two am on a monday, and i'm nervous, i'm tired and i've fixed a gross and messy drain. I did good though. i'm a neat little fixer :) LOL i guess we all have to be good at something. Give me something i can fix and i'll do it..... give me a choice or a situation where i might have to invest myself emotinally and i'm going to get into some real big problems .

good night world!